(2005, rev. 2012) Duration: 14′
LIVE excerpt recording (Yale Philarmonia, March 31, 2005, Woolsey Hall, New Haven, CT.)
for picc. (sep. player) 2 fl,2 ob, E.H. (sep. player), 2 clar Bb, bass clar. (sep. player), 2 bsns; contrabsn (sep. player) – 4,2,3,1 – timp. – perc. (4): glock, BD, vib., chimes, tri., sus. cym., sm. tam-tam, lg. tam-tam. – hrp – pno – strings.
World Premiere (first version): March 31, 2005, by the Yale Philharmonia, Maestro Shinik Hahm, Conductor, Woolsey Hall, Yale School of Music, New Haven, CT.
World Premiere (revision): May 13, 2012, by the Princeton Symphony Orchestra, Richardson Hall, Princeton, NJ.
Program Notes:
The main theme for Disquiet started as a sketch in the fall of 2000. The creative impetus for this music was, to speak broadly, the agitation of unspoken words, particularly when those words simmer and writhe beneath an imposed facade of calm. In 2004, while a graduate student at Yale, I chose to use this material as the basis of my first orchestra piece. My reasons for doing so were both musical and personal. I continued to be drawn to that original theme and realized I needed to write this piece in order to finally give voice to the words I had not been able to. To that end, the piece became something of a memoir, a remembrance. In addition to its dramatic declarations, there are moments of tender recollection and playful humor; at one point something of a drinking song even makes its presence known. Ultimately, though, the piece is a meditation on the idea that even in the most agitated restlessness, a certain serenity and gratitude are possible.
I completed Disquiet in 2005, and revised it in 2012. The piece is about 14 minutes in one movement. Disquiet is dedicated with love to my husband, Steven.
Beautiful!